whatever you said can be very painful.
i had a very bad dream, because of you. you said something that hurts me so much that made me cry. i dream of the same thing what u did to me. it shows how painful i am.
please, do care bout my feelings. i need a break. i need to go far away from here.
p/s : sorry for the emo post. will update a new one soon, hopefully..
RuS
8:21 am
hey
RIDZ,
i hope u're not mad or angry with me. i know that i didnt wish u happy birthday yet. but heck, how can a sister would forget her own bro's birthday, rite? its a revenge cause u actually forgot avana's birthday. ish2. im really disappointed :P
this post has been in my draft since..... 5 days ago? i couldnt find the right time to turn on my laptop for the past few days. hope u understand.
i would like to take this opportunity to thank you for everything. not only as a friend, but as my lil bro!
honestly, ppl always complain bout u to me. but, i never take it seriously coz i know you better than them. hey, we had a fight once a while. well, our life will never be this great if we never had a fight, rite?
im the youngest in the family. and having you in my life, i feel like im the eldest. yes, dont call me makcik.. and dont call me kakak cause ppl keep on calling me kakak and i hate it :( i know that i look
old matured.
we got to know each other better when we were in form 4. i still remember what the girls told me bout you long long time ago. form 2 and form 3, i guess? haha.
i know that sumtimes u'll always talk bad bout me. pls dont deny it? but forget it. its normal. and yeah,
i dah lama maafkan you.btw ridz!
Thx for being such a good lil bro.
Thx for everything. Thx for tolerating me.
im full of suprises, i know. but i hate suprises, kay?
Semoga panjang umur dan dirahmati Allah S.W.T.Selamat Hari Jadi kuucapkan,
Semoga kau mengahargai detik-detik kehidupan ini
dengan lebih tabah dan gigih,
kehidupan yang lebih bermakna
kehidupan yang kita senantiasa mengahargai detik dengan hati yang tulus,izinkan aku mengundur diri buat seketika,
kerna,
takdir akan menemukan kita semula
sebagai insan yang lebih berguna
jangan hampakan daku,
sesungguhnya,
engkaulah insan yang aku harapkan untuk berjaya
didunia dan juga diakhirat.specially for you. and pls dont get me wrongly. I love you, ridz.
as my beloved bro! :D
Happy Birthday Ridzwan!
5:06 pm
i finally got the chance to go out with my frens. haha.
i accidently spent 100+, again. i didnt bring dat much cash. so, i just use my mastercard. and i owe nina RM15. thanks nina! will pay u back soon.
im in love with that white dress. cant believe that the long dress suits me very well. hurm... and its not dat expansive tho. but wait, my mom doesnt allow me to buy dat dress. her reason is, becuase im fat. gosh. do u know how painful and sad it is?
i need to buy a dress for prom. once in a lifetime. i have to. but then again, i still dont feel good bout our prom. i dont know why.
btw, i had my driving class just now. im not gonna elobrate bout dat. it wasnt dat hard or too easy. it was okay, i guess. i need to practise more.
oh, i love my necklace! :D :D
might be going to ou tmrw. hopefully.
RuS
9:15 pm
everyone is busy talking about prom.. :( and me, i dont feel like going. blegh. i just dont feel good bout it. i dont know why. i know its hard to find a nice dress that suits me. i got this dunno wat u call it all over my body. it bloody hurts and its itchy! i gained so much weight and i hate my tummy now. grr. how am i suppose to go to the prom?
oh yes, everyone can laugh at me. im on a very tight diet now. no rice, no bread, no choc, no sweets and no ice-cream. i had to go for a jog
almost everyday. 120 sit up everyday. and i might be going to the gym once a while. im sick of ppl calling me fat fat. especially its from my mom's mouth.
i cut my hair short and now, i dont know wat to do with my hair. friends, help me!
who wants to buy my ticket? argh. worse come to worse, i might be wearing my old dress. thats a disaster, really.
btw, im going for my driving class later.. gosh, im scared :P why? im driving! can u believe it? for the first time, im driving kancil! haha. i dunno wats gonna happen to the kancil, man. haha. wish me luck.
i thought i'll just be staring at the ceiling and rot after SPM, perhaps im the busiest women on earth. haha. yes, im busy with my driving class and all. yes, im helping my mom in the office, sumtimes. yes, i followed my bro anywhere he goes (except the toilet) :P i stayed up with my bro late at nite watching movies. yes, i go out almost everyday.
and friends, im sorry that i couldnt spend more time with u guys. i really wanna follow u guys. but heck, i got my other plan earlier. hopefully i can go to our dinner tmrw. pls pls. genius mummy bought our ticket to jakarta. its an open ticket! aiyay. so, wenever she wants to go, she'll just say it. and yes, my mom is a last minute person. if lets say, im really going to jakarta, i hope i can find a nice and cheap dress there. pls pls.
its been awhile i didnt see my frens till yesterday. oh, someone misses me. i bet everyone misses me but they dont wanna admit it. haha.
guys are going to the curve, gurls are going to summit. and me? busy with my own life. argh. i wanna go to kl. i wanna go to BB. i wanna go to sungai wang.
might be going out with Alex. but dunno wen.
the reason why i hate Maxis is, i hate their broadband! hate it! grrr..
asyik2 takde line. geram i! :P oh brother, i hope u're seriously gonna change to streamyx.
RuS
7:11 am
