ARGH.
I am so not happy.
Do u know how sad when everybody said,
"Aiyo, kan senang if Lina dapat 10A1?""Results teruk nak study susah2 buat apa? Jangan mimpi lah"
"You should get better than this la, Lina"
"What happen to you lah? Lina buat apa masa SPM tu?"
"I thought you could get straight A's""So, how now? Hancur everything" "Tu lah, derhaka lagi"
"Last time, Lina tak pernah complain bout your studies. Macam mana blh dapat B?""Dah lah. Tak payah nak cita tinggi2. Study biasa2 sudah""Reseat paper nak?" "Malu lah nak sebut Lina tak dapat straight A's. All this while you got ur straight A's. But now?"
"You screwed your SPM. You have to do something so that you can cover up ur SPM results"
Bugger. I feel darn stupid. I feel like im so useless and dumb. I dont mind if some strangers said that to me. But not from my parents and my relatives.
I wish all my family could say,
"You did your best"
"Your results are not that bad"
"We're happy with your results"
But thanks to my bro, he said i did okay :/ Thats all.
Guess what i told my mom?
"Mummy buat lah apa yang patut. If lets say i should do foundation or anything, masuk je lah Lina kat mana2 college. I just want to study hard"To be honest, im not even qualified to go to any medical school yet. I need to do A-level, foundation or matriculation. Thats their minimum entry requirements. I still need to do pre-U wert -___-" I dont think i need fantastic SPM results, rite? Be grateful that at least, my SPM slip is not colourful, kay? Grr.
Oh well. Be prepared. I might be going to sunway too. Monash, to be exact. I want to go to SeGi college actually, but my dad said its too far -___-" Plus, my mom said, she's worried that i will feel inferior coz the ppl there are damn rich. Err? :/ I even said that i want to go to Indonesia to do my pre-med. And my beloved mom said that im too young to go overseas. What?! :/
Tsk Tsk. What's next?
RuS
8:06 pm
